Saturday, February 25, 2012

Song for My Students and My Daughters

How lonely winter is:
Leaf falls from limb,
And wintry wind howls through treetop.
The dead world waits beneath
Flat sheet of altostratus 
And blanket of snow,
As last year's acorns await resurrection,
Growing soft in the warm bosom of The Womb.

And Apollo finds no strength
To drag the sun higher,
To keep it longer in the sky,
To shine its light and warmth
On the sleeping world.
Green and violet and yellow and blue 
Recede into black and white and grey and brown
Of hibernating Earth.

Oh, fledglings! How we care for you,
Both I and your mother.
Safely in your nests you hide
Beneath warm breast and bright wing.
But you have grown too large for us,
And your wings are growing
Nimble and strong and restless.

And your chirps have passed, too.
Your mother and father hear, now,
Your blithe voices.
We have heard these songs before.
Do not fear the tears in our eyes.
Do not despise the sorrow in our hearts.
Do not look at us so desperately.
We have weathered many winters.

You have passed the winter safely
Under our watchful eyes,
In the safety of this nest,
Fed from our bowels.
Did you know how scarce the food was?
Did you fear the howling coyote?
Did the shadow of the hawk disturb your rest,
As it did ours?

But now your breasts, too, are strong.
Your voices, too, and melodious.
Plumage bright and airy
Like peacocks and doves,
You stand on our bough,
Crasping tightly, with thin leg and skinny knee.
Can the sparrow watch her children fall,
Or must she turn her face?

Beware of hunters.
Beware of vipers. 
Beware of minks.
Beware of hawks and owls.
Beware of beautiful bluejays, who will rob your nests.
Beware of milkweed and passion vine, and
Beware of fancy-winged butterflies, who feed upon them,
And other illusions. 

Beware, but rise.
Unfold your wings in the falling.
Ride upon the winds that threaten your nests,
And master them
As they carry you to heights greater 
And you perch upon the tops of trees,
To unloose your song
Upon the world.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Man with Guitar

Listen: It comes through the ears.
The heart speaks to the heart.

Did she sing to you in the darkness
Before the sun rose?
Did she soothe you with a whisper?

You know her voice.
You trust her voice.

Touch: Your calloused fingertips
Hold her, hammer her, pluck her. 

Do you feel her singing in your hands
As you bend her?
Do your palms sweat on her neck?

There she is, in your fingers.
There she is, at your lips.

Taste: She is good, warm milk.
It comes through the breast.

Did you know how much she loved you
When you sang for her?
Did you remember to kiss her tears?

She waits between your lips.
She lives upon your tongue.

See: She dances before you.
Her legs. Her hips. Her feet.

Did you notice the beating of your heart?
When she looked into your eyes,
Did you go blind?

Your father wanted her, too.
Your father sang for her, too.

Smell: Breathe her odor
As she wraps you in swathes. 

Did you feel her in your lungs 
When you inhaled her?
Did she put the spirit inside of you? 

You live because of her.
She lives inside of you.

Know: She is already inside of you.
She enters through the body.

How long will you pretend
To search for something else?
Don't you feel her inside of you, already?

She is always before you.
She is always behind you.

Speak: She passes through the heart.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Ovulation

It's like an egg.
A hard, round shell
With an in-side and an out-side,
And whichever side is the in-side or the out-side
Is up to you.
To get from one side to the other
You have to break the shell.
But if you break it,
You won't be able to see it anymore,
Except in pieces of shell and yolk and white and embryo.
And if you break it,
The in-side and the out-side
Become the same side,
And you can see that there are no two places after all,
Just a egg.

Man, listen:
It holds it all together,
But it doesn't change what it is.

See, you began inside,
Nourished by the mother,
Brooded by warm breast,
Growing strong,
Like a bull.
But the shell was a real pain in the ass,
And as your heart grew and pumped blood,
And as your spine grew long and strong,
And as your legs grew restless
Because they grew larger than the space inside,
The shell cracked,
And we all celebrated because you left the egg,
And no one murmured, "Mind the shell."

Girl, listen:
Inside is a safe place to live,
But it is a safe place to die, too.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Blasphemy

YHVH,
Don't say it aloud.
Instead,
Find a reasonable substitute, 
Such as Adonai or Elohim.
And instead of saying,
My dad raped me when I was 11,
Say,
I had a rough childhood.
It's much better that way.
Or when someone is about to die,
And when you look at her,
You see death on her lips,
And she asks,
How do I look?
You should say,
You look great!
You look beautiful!
And when she is dead and in the coffin,
You should say to her children,
She looks so peaceful.
This is so much better than how it was.
For if you say it this way,
It's better.